Anonymous asked: so ur never going to update again? ur fanfic was fuckin amazing gurl.
I feel like this is someone I know but they are hiding on anon lol… I haven’t written in ages, I was reading my old fanfics last night and I miss writing but I don’t know what to write about, lol
Anonymous asked: when r u going to update??!?!??!?
I’m sorry I’ve just lost the inspiration for this story!
Anonymous asked: You should know that you're story is really good. The drama feels real and not over the top. There's no need to change it, but of course that's up to you if you're not happy with it.
aw thankyou anon, maybe I’ll try work on it today. would love it if you came off anon! <3
Anonymous asked: please keep on writing!!
hahaha now looking at it it’s all so dramatic and it seems a bit silly so I just haven’t written for a while lol… :s
Anonymous asked: Sooo when can we expect the next chapter?
once again, why anon? if this is someone I know I don’t really mind if you’re reading! and I’m not quite sure - I’m writing it now. Maybe tomorrow or the next day. Tonight if your lucky :o
Anonymous asked: This is so well written, there's so much emotion in it. Keep it up!
aw thankyou so much, you don’t have to be on anon :’) xx
Sorry if this chapter isn’t amazing. From this chapter on things will get interesting :) Thanks for reading. Preeshiate chu!
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Staring out the window, I watched as the sudden downpour of rain drenched the streets below. The water droplets slowly dripped down the window as they almost seemed to disappear. I couldn’t even process my thoughts. There was no way this was really happening. It was too unreal to comprehend, it was almost like I felt nothing.
I walked into the bedroom and saw Vanessa placing her clothes neatly into her bag. Still, I felt nothing. Just empty. It was her idea to stack books next to the bed and use that as a table instead of spending a couple of hundred dollars on a side table, which was part of her creative side that I discovered when she had moved in. I watched as the pile slowly shrunk and she took her books. I saw her take one of her books when some papers fell out from between them. Suddenly I could hear my heart beating in my ears and I quickly grabbed them, watching her look up at me with an odd expression.
“Whats that?” she asked. I simply walked out of the room, unable to respond.
I put those papers there for a perfectly good reason, so Vanessa wouldn’t find them. The first sheet of paper had the words “The rest of my life” written at the top. The pages were filled with lyrics, which had been crossed out and re written too many times to count. It was the song that described everything I has felt for Vanessa. It was also the song I had written instead of spending time with her, and now I had to watch her walk out of the home we had built up together.
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I watched Vanessa walk around the apartment, making sure she hadn’t forgotten anything. She walked to the front door, picking up her bags and turning back to look at me as I was sitting on the couch. She looked sad. But I could tell its what she wanted. If I loved her enough, I’d let her go. She sighed, looking at the door before hesitating and walking over to me. She let her hands caress my face before kissing me. All the feelings I thought I couldn’t feel anymore came back in that one second - I felt sick to my stomache, my body actually felt like it was in pain - because the second her lips would separate from mine and she would walk away, that would be it, she would be gone. I placed my hand on her soft cheek as I lingered on to the kiss. She pulled away before whispering “goodbye Bruno” and closing the door behind her as she left.
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I heard a knock at the door. I chose to ignore it, sitting at the couch just staring up at the ceiling. There was another knock, which once again I ignored. I didn’t have the energy to talk to anyone.
“Bruno, open the door man” I heard Phil say.
“Bruno’s not home, come back later.” I mumbled.
“Man, you’re a pussy, open up! I haven’t heard from you in weeks-“
Phil stopped talking when I opened the door. His expression changed, but I couldn’t really read what he was thinking. I didn’t really care enough to try and read into his thoughts, anyway. I walked back to the couch and allowed him to let himself in. He took a seat on the couch opposite me and I could see him watching me from the corner of my eyes. I took my eyes off the ceiling and turned to face him, raising an eyebrow in a questioning way. He continued to stare.
“What?” I finally asked. He was making me feel annoyed.
“You don’t look good man.”
“Thanks” I responded sarcastically. I didn’t need another person drilling me about my life.
“When was the last time you went out?” asked Phil.
“The other day to get groceries.”
“No, you know what I mean Bruno. You haven’t even been to the studio in what, months? Have you even been writing anything?”
I couldn’t be bothered explaining this to Phil again. I wasn’t gonna write songs anymore, the whole reason Vanessa left was because I put my career before her. Music broke us up.
“Earth to Mars?” I heard Phil say. I looked up, and I’d never seen him look so worried. I sighed and sat up properly instead of slouching over.
“You spoken to anyone back in Hawaii?” he asked. I tried to think of the best way to put what they had been saying to me.
“The family used to call me to see how things are going, y’know, with the songwriting and stuff, and with Vanessa… but now their tones changing. Suddenly they are all like ‘well, maybe you should come back…” I sat there in silence, unsure of what to say. “I don’t wanna go back home to Hawaii a failure.”
“Man, we’ve been doing this for years, you gotta try think positive” said Phil.
“Don’t you get it, Phil? Vanessa was everything to-“
“I know Bruno! I know…” another wave of silence filled the room.
“It’s been three or four years since I came out here, I’m broke as hell… I don’t know Phil.”
“Do whatever you feel is right, young grasshopper” Phil brought his hands to his chest and bowed down at me. I managed a small smile. A fresh start would be good for me, I had to try get my mind of Vanessa and wallowing in pity wasn’t gonna do anything.
“I think it’s time I went home.” I whispered to myself.
(Source: itwillrainbruno)
illkeepstrongforyou asked: Im in love with your fanfic, it is so so amazing!x
that means so much to me, thankyou! <3
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